April 2010
To do list:
4-5 drawings for art plus the final 2 and a half english papers 2 history papers Little over one week. Probably won’t happen.
Things I hate about myself
1. How I fucked up my hair by glueing in extensions. 2. How thin my hair is. 3. The tiny bit of chub at the bottom of my tummy that won’t go away no matter how hard I try to make it. 4. Small fingers. 5. I can’t keep my room clean. 6. I never go to bed what I want to. 7. I have small eyelashes. 8. How weird I look without my glasses. 9. How I can’t seem to keep guys around for...
“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who...”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via kari-shma) (via amtrack)
No real point in this.
I eat whatever floats my boat and lose weight without trying? But honestly i had the flattest tummy ive ever had about a month ago, when i didnt eat much at all. Ive lost weight but feel like im 17.6 pounds bigger. I dont know what happened. I want to wear my big black baggy shirt thats long enough for a dress tomorrow but its no place to be found. Must wake up early enough tomorrow to look for...
Today can be over now
Not only am i running on about 3 hours of sleep i hate waking up to come to this shit hole of a college that i dont even want to come to anymore.
I look like utter shit. I feel like i did in high school. Its bad. I guess i just dont care. Letting myself go a bit. No more 2 hours to get ready in the morning. Im failing most of my classes and i really just dont care. I hate it here and i think id...
“the problem is that as much as i cant force you
to love me, i cant force myself...”
– (via amtrack)
I wish i knew how to
Work a sewing machine
I learned in 7th grade and forgot
This glue is just not holding up
I would also like “staple” studs
A gun for them
And some thread, i need to find mine
My sister got a mini sewing machine for xmas, maybe shell let me use it :)
Time to dig around in my closet and look for a bucket of thread she has.
“yes. live today. not yesterday. not tomrrow. just today. inhabit your moments....”
– Love by Jerry Spinelli
2009 to do list
2009 to do list:
1. See the Jonas Brothers
2. Meet the Jonas brothers
3. See Benny again- done
4. Go to the zoo
5. Go skinny dipping
6. Go on a plane- done
7. Leave state- done
8. get accpeted to occ- done
9. Move out!
10. Get a job- done
11. Treat people like i’ll never see them again.
12. Get drunk- done
13. 7:00 mile!
14. Find love
15. Get a pet!
16. Get my permit
17. get my...
Everything that i got my hopes up for is gone.
NOT letting myself get used.
I will be posting pictures soon of the clothes i have made after the glue dries.
i want to color my hair darker soon.
And by soon i mean today.
I wish i had plans and wasnt sitting home on such a nice day.
Maybe ill go get my hair, nails, toes and eyebrows done.
Ive never had them waxed before.
